Perseverence

[Quote Ref: Regina Brett]

Perseverence is something that I lack in my interests and hobbies.

I do tend to flake out on things over time and if I suddenly hit a wall with what I'm doing I may stop doing that particular thing or give it less of my attention.

I was watching some travel vlogs of a few people travelling in Peru with Contiki and Alli inspired me to pick up with Spanish again. 

I hadn't done it for some time and struggled on the first lesson, I'll admit that halfway through the lesson I closed the session after getting around five answers wrong.

I stopped myself when I navigated my way back to YouTube and internally told myself off.

'So you're just going to give up as soon as it gets hard? How will you ever learn a language that way? Learning something new will always be difficult, try again and take your time.'

Learning a language isn't easy, I'll be the first person to admit it. The reason that I first wanted to learn Spanish is because a young girl in Costa Rica flawed me with her near-perfect translation from Spanish to English in around 5 seconds when asking me a question and she realised I was English. 

The fire in my belly hasn't gone out but my perseverence has waned slightly. 

427 million people speak Spanish all over the world and I would love to be able to one day communicate with a Spanish speaker in Spanish.

Just because I'm getting some of the questions wrong doesn't mean to say I'm failing. 

If I keep pushing and one day it'll sink in. 

Toodles.

x

Manic Monday #114 - There's this guy...

Today is mine and Ben's 9 year anniversary.

I'm not one for being really personal on this blog, but I've been thinking over our relationship quite a lot today and wanted to dedicate this post fully to my other half. 

He is like the calm to my storm.

It take a lot to ruffle Ben's feathers, where I'm quite quick to 'twirl' Ben will always there to bring me back to normality.

He's incredibly generous.

Ben is always there if anyone needs a helping hand, whether monetary or otherwise. He'll definitely be the first person to put his hand up and offer to help out. 

He's so very likeable.

Everyone seems to have a soft spot for him. He seems to have an easy approach to social situations and meeting new people. There's a warmth somewhere that draws people in and make them feel comfortable around him.

He's a hard worker.

It's something I've always admired about him, he takes his work very seriously, working hard to prove his worth in the work place and always trying his hardest to do the best he possibly can. 

He's rather thrifty.

He is definitely the main reason we are in the position to be able to purchase our first house, he's not a spender; yet another thing I am in awe of...

I just can't help myself!

He's always there, if it's just to relay a funny story to or to cry about a difficult day. He'll always (mostly) listen and give me a hug.

Our relationship has been easy and I have gained a best friend that I'll treasure throughout my life. 

I'm proud to call him my other half.

x

Nooooooo, only on Wednesday did I realise that this hadn't posted!!!!!!

Manic Monday #113

Hello!

Ben and I spent a lovely weekend in Bournemouth, visiting his mum and partner. I love being by the sea, it seems to breath some life in to me and makes me feel amazing.

I find watching the sea hypnotic and could sit, watching waves for hours on end. 

We both need to make more time to go and visit his mum, it's always such a great time and I never want to come home at the end of the weekend.

It's amazing how sometimes a short period of time can make you feel like you're well and truly out of the loop. 

I had four days out of my usual 'routine', we shall say, I feel very discombobulated and felt that I had fallen out of touch with everything around me.

I had a few moments of self doubt today, which I don't like to feel as I don't like to feel like I'm 'twirling'. 

I haven't felt like that in my job for some time and felt like I was trooping along with the requirements, but I made a couple of errors today and felt like the biggest failure in the world.

I know that I'm not and know that making a mistake doesn't mean I've failed. I'm way too hard on myself in some situations, especially within work as I like to prove myself, work  hard to pick up the essentials and learn as I go along.

Mistakes are part of life and learning from a mistake generally ensures you won't do it again. If everyone gave up at the first sign of a hurdle, no one would come close to achieving anything in life. 

Give yourself a break sometimes.

Toodles.

x

Create

[Image Source: Anthropologie]

Sometimes an idea is like a dream, that in as soon as you wake, it filters through your memory like sand and slowly disappears until you are left with nothing, desperately trying to remember your thought process.

The feeling, sound or numerous other things that can re-trigger that memory are sometimes bizarre and appear to have no relevance to where you thought process was going, but you're back to where you started.

A thought that has a direction lights a fire within you, a way to get to where you want to go. Something to feed your creativity and excites you enough to just get things started.

Does popular opinion matter when you have something tangible in your mind? 

When pen goes to paper and some people sneer at what you're creating, will they really get in the way?

Being a creative person causes you to already have road blocks of creativity, the lingering creative blocks that can last for a day, week, month or years, the dull noise in the back of your mind telling you it's never good enough, the people in life who don't want to understand or believe in you enough to let you being that creator you dream of being. 

You have to create regardless of the blocks to be that person you want to be. 

Let your creativity shine.

Even if it's just you enjoying your art, at least someone is enjoying it.

 

 x

Thoughts of You

Today, I am thinking of you and all of the times we shared together through our childhood and teenage years creating memories to last a lifetime.

Though I hadn't seen you for some time, I thought about you often and missed the sound of your laugh, the silly things we used to do, causing trouble at your Mum's house and missed spending time with you.

It seems so cruel that you only got to live 27 years of life and I still sometimes forget you are no longer here with us, when I do the feeling hits like a freight train.

I hope you are resting well.
I will be looking at the stars tonight and will be searching for the brightest one.

Love, always.

X