Manic Monday #72

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Monday again, you do roll around a little too quickly. I had a nice weekend, filled with lots of people even though I did intend otherwise. I avoided my house in the evenings as much as I could as the incessantly boring (to me) Evo took place and of course my house was overran by boys and games.

I did obviously spend time with my friends but did so while it wasn't on, I escaped for the evening to my friends house and we hung out for the evening which we hadn't done in ages. I also got to spend some time with my parents and brother which is also a pleasure.

I had all good intentions to start the week off well, in a good positive place, I started my day with a mantra. I want to try mantra's for a while to see if I can do some self-improvement.

But then I just had a trying day which tested my first mantra day. Things seemed to go wrong at work, all my technological appliances formed an alliance against me and decided  to not work as intended.

I love technology and am definitely pro-improvements, buy my oh my I despise the stuff when it doesn't work.

The light at the end of the tunnel is that I will be looking after my aunties puppy for a few days while shes away in Ireland in August. She's super adorable and cutesy so I'm very much looking forward to having her for a couple of days.

I know the state of my blog has rapidly gone from bad to worse since June, it is my full intention of getting back in to the swing of things, but I am just riding the storm waiting it out for the pazazz to come back.

Positive mantras, positive mind-set, positive thoughts.

We'll be back soon.

Toodles.

x

Manic Monday #71

It looks like the not-so-manic Mondays might be on the return, things are slowing down at work in time for our slowest period of the year.

I dislike being un-busy, I tend to create work for myself if this happens as idle hands are the devil's play things and on the other hand I then resent being at work when I could be doing much more constructive things as opposed to whiling away hours of unnecessary forced work. 

I am trying to get back in to writing my book, the characters have been flitting in to my mind quite frequently and have been tantalising me back in to their world. I decided to read through all I have written so far to edit and amend where necessary, I started it a fair while ago now so I am sure it will need it! I do want to have a friend read what I have done far to get an outsiders perspective, but thought it best I read through first!

Ben's mum is staying with us this week, so we are playing hostess for the first time which is nice. It's strange that you never think about your routine at home until someone else comes in! I know sometimes my evenings are utterly ridiculously spent, but to each their own!

Wednesday will be here before I know it and I will be attending Emily's funeral, it still doesn't feel right. It's not sitting right with me at all and I don't think my mind can comprehend that she's gone and I didn't get to say goodbye. I am sure her funeral will be difficult and incredibly sad but hopefully it will bring with it some semblance of peace and a way for me to accept it. 

The above makes it difficult for me to know how to finish this, I think I may just go with a...

Toodles.

x

Manic Monday #70

I've loaded my YouTube Favourites playlist with some songs I've been listing down, it's currently playing through and I'm ready. 

I'm in a complete funk at the moment, I honestly can't put my finger on my ambivalent mood. I think I am missing Canada. Nothing is inspiring me, I don't feel particularly inclined to go to the gym, I'm not too fussed about doing my Duolingo lessons. I won't bore you with the minors but I'm sure you can get my gist.

Nothing is tickling my fancy at the moment! I feel like I'm half asleep, stumbling through life doing what I have to do.

Except a book, a book that I would never have normally given a second too, it's a mystery novel; of sorts, I use that term very loosely, not really knowing the genre I am currently reading very well. It's probably not in the realms of the mystery genre at all. It's a beach read, let's face it, Adele.

The Sudden Departure of the Frasers - it was an impulse pick-up buy while I was shopping, an easy read to reignite my passion for reading after George R.R Martin put my love of reading to the test and essentially broke my heart. Oooh, the pain. 

I am thoroughly enjoying reading the book and I really want to find out what's happening on Lime Park Road! The characters are easily relatable and the writing makes you want to turn over that next page, it's not a task to read it. It's just what I needed.

I'm fed up of feeling like a zombie, so I went to the gym, told my boss/uncle that I have an interview on Thursday morning, cooked some great food and am about to embark upon a few Duolingo lessons before relaxing with The Sudden Departure of the Frasers. 

How do you get out of your ruts? What do you think it is that makes you feel that way in the first place? 

Toodles.

x

Monday

 It feels like it has been quite some time and it definitely has been. Things have been a bit topsy-turvy this month and I decided to take a step back and out of blogging for a little while as it didn't feel right to me.

June has been a failure in my blogging life, I tried to schedule as much as I could while I was away, but unfortunately time made a fool of me as usual. 

To be quite frank, I have no idea where I want to go with this little space of mine. I love all things make-up based and beauty related but there are blogs far superior to mine and I feel like I am hidden in the shadows. I still will post things as and when I find something amazing but for the most part this won't be a beauty-related blog, another point...I definitely do not have enough disposable income to spend a ludicrous amount on make-up and skin-care items that I may or may not like each month. The beauty blogging world, for me, is far too competitive and fast paced. 

This June has also been one of the most amazing and reflective months for me in the past few years. I visited Canada, somewhere I have wanted to visit since learning about it, I had the most wonderful couple of weeks there, I felt like I was there for an eternity and did so much. It felt weird coming home, I felt right there. I still want to be there now as I type, I am still very much looking forward to sharing my pictures with you all. 

On the other hand, June took a definite U-Turn. There was a car crash in my town, 5 people were involved in a car crash and 3 were killed instantly. One of those people was my best and dearest friend from my entire school life, Emily. I hadn't seen Emily for a few years, having drifted apart after we finished college, but it utterly broke my heart to hear that she had died in such a horrific car accident. It still doesn't feel real or right, that the girl I was best friends with from the age of 3 until 17, was suddenly no longer in this world. She has left behind her a beautiful little girl who is a perfect Mini-Me of Emily, countless friends and her wonderful mum, Gill. The world is now a little less brighter than it used to be, but the night sky has gained a beautiful star. Her friendship still means the world to me and I will never forget the countless, wonderful, silly, hilarious, amazing moments we shared together.

Life throws the unexpected right at you when you least expect it and makes you appreciate everything you have. It makes you say those "I Love You's", "Thank You's" and hold your loved ones a little tighter. 

Live your life for you and do everything you want too. You are capable of everything you dream, make sure you believe it.

Toodles.

x

June; Part 2

You took a huge U-Turn.

I'm failing, June.

Rest in Peace, beautiful.

x